friend,happy 21st birthday

i know today is your birthday,but i’m not so sure whether i should wish it to you or not…i’m afraid you might be annoyed with my wish…so i think it is better for me to wish it in here…perhaps, someday you may heard about this by the others…you know what,for me, we used to be the “Three of May”, the 1st one on 5th, then you on 10th and me 15th afterwards…who may know the friendship gonna end up like this…not even talking and look at each other…it’s ok, somewhere somehow it might be my fault…well mate,may you find your joy in this glory age and may Allah bless you always…may you find happiness and your success in whatever you do…happy 21st birthday friend!!!=)

i’m at a payphone trying to call home

all of my change i’ve spent on you

where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong

where are the plans we made for two?

yeah i,i know it’s hard to remember

the people we used to be

it’s even harder to picture

when you’re not here next to me

you say it’s too late to make it

but is it too late to try?

and in our time that you wasted

all of our bridges burned down

i’ve wasted my nights, you turned out the lights

now i’m paralyzed, still stuck in that time

when we called it love 

but even the sun sets in paradise

i’m at a payphone trying to call home

all of my change i’ve spent on you

where have the times gone,baby it’s all wrong

where are the plans we made for two?

if happy ever after did exist

i would still holding you like this

and all those fairy tales are full of shit

one more fucking love song i’ll be sick

you tun you’re back on tomorrow

cause you forgot yesterday

i gave you my love to borrow

but you just gave it away

you can’t expect me to be fine

i don’t expect you to care

i know i said it before

but all of our bridges burned down

i’ve wasted my nights, you turned out the lights

now i’m paralyzed, still stuck in that time

when we called it love

but even the sun sets in paradise

i’m at a payphone trying to call home

all of my change i’ve spent on you

where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong

where are the plans we made for two?

now i’m at a payphone

i try to rebuild my trust in that so called love…even with the time’s help…but it’s just like a mouse trying to repair a pumpkin…got wasted…you used to understand me…and me used to understand you…now i just don’t know what to do…now i know why did people keep telling me don’t fall too hard…just nice is better…too much of everything can make you sick,said cheryl cole….i need to realize that 2009 would never ever be happening again…i need to slow down…too much of commitment is too much…and it is not the time yet…just stay the way you are right before this…the one with less commitment,not too pushy,not care too much…don’t need much,just nice is better…

back on 2009…i’m a person who have no trust in love…love can badly hurt and wound people instead of happiness and peace…but then you came…convinced me that love can be trusted…love can bring the happiness to every living thing…can provide peace to the earth…and i trusted you…then i felt too deep into love…unfortunately i started it in a wrong path…path that i can’t even go back…that path are beautiful in the beginning,then it became a weapon bit by bit…after three years not only one heart,but two are wounded…now i feel so regret for started it up wrongly…i should have start it in a better way…the worst part is…my trust in love are not as strong as before…a bit less…and i don’t have any idea how am i suppose to correct this…time perhaps